Because of Him Playlists

It's time for another playlist.

Here are my picks for Because of Him - Book 2 of The Mind Breaker Accounts:

1) Every Other Freckle - alt-J
2) Bad Blood - Bear's Den
3) Let's Get Lost - G-Easy, Devon Baldwin
4) Why We Try - Matthew Mayfield feat. Chelsea Lankes
5) Quiet Lies - Matthew Mayfield
6) Tell Her You Love Her - Echosmith
7) Girls Like You - The Naked and Famous
8) Wild Eyes - Local Natives
9) Life Boat (Tc Spitfire Remix) - Early Morning Rebel
10) Long the Way You Lie Pt. 2 - Rihanna, Eminem
11) Tangled Web - Matt Hires
12) We Won't - Jaymes Young, Phoebe Ryan
13) You Haunt Me (Amtrac Remix) - Sir Sly
14) Bittersweet - ARCHIS
15) Fear (Phil Tan Radio Mix) - Blue October
16) Eyes Shut - Years & Years

I also made a playlist dedicated to Alivien and Liz... it's called "Are you Listening?"

1) Handcuffs - Prince Royce
2) The Hills - The Weeknd
3) Take Me to Church - Hozier
4) Black Sun - Death Cab for Cutie
5) Chandelier (Piano Version) - Sia
6) Let it Go - Devlin, Labrinth
7) Here - Alessia Cara
8) Drops in the Ocean - Hawk Nelson
9) Hold On, We're Going Home - Pia Mia
10) You've Haunted Me All My Life - Death Cab for Cutie
11) I Know, I Know - Matt Hires
12) Fallout - Marianas Trench
13) Whisper Whisper - Paper & Places
14) California - Yellowcard
15) Often (Kygo Remix) - The Weeknd
16) Safe Place to Land - Christian Burghardt

a thought.

On August 20th I uploaded the final version of BECAUSE OF HIM.

This will be my sixth book professionally released independently on Amazon.

WOW!

It feels like I've come a long way in three years, and I think it's true. 

I've met so many amazing people that have become assets to my career and developed lasting friendships along the way! Whenever I add a new book to my bibliography on Goodreads, I think just how happy I am that this is what I chose to do with my life. I love writing. I love telling stories and filling pages with endless words that can inspire, crush, or make you think. It's wonderful to know that so many people are reading my words and feeling something because of them. 

Still, there are days when I doubt myself. There are times when I wonder if I'll ever have more than this. Just me, sitting in my room and writing for the internet. Of course, I'd love to be traditionally published. I'd love to walk into Barnes & Noble and see my book sitting on the shelf. Not because I want the money, but because it would mean my stories are reaching a wider audience. 

I've struggled for a long time to balance the line between being independent and having an agent/publisher/publicist back me. I'm afraid I'll lose the freedom I currently have with doing everything myself, but at the same time, I'm afraid that without those people I'll never reach my true potential. 

I've said it before: I don't want to be famous. And it's true.

I don't want to be John Green or J.K. Rowling. My wish is not to be a millionaire that flies across the globe and does countless interviews answering the same questions over and over. I never want to lose the relationships I've built with my readers. I'd love to see my books play out on a big screen, but I never want to lose the drive to have an imagination. If I could make enough money from book sales to leave my day job, that would be awesome, but isn't that the dream for most authors? 

I'm finding more and more that the writing world is full of genuine people. The authors I've met are not in this because of the money or the recognition. They love telling stories. I've never felt so welcomed by a group of people than when I'm at book festivals. I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that my world revolves around books, and those that write them.

It seems that as long as there are people out there that want to read my books, I'll write them.

Even if there's not, I doubt I'd stop.

No matter what happens, I don't think I'll ever give up my one true love.

“Tell me, what is it you plan to do 
with your one wild and precious life?” 
― Mary Oliver

"Fade"

I was (and still am) planning to create a lyric video for the song Lauren Lyle and I recorded together for The Mind Breaker Accounts, but it's yet to become a thing. That's because I'm currently working to publish 4 novels in less than a year and a half..... anyone have any extra time they can spare?
No? Okay.

Anyway. The lyrics have been requested, so until there's a video, I'm just going to post them here for anyone that is curious!

Also, here are the links to iTunes and Spotify.

(Megan)
I told
No one
When I walked away
Kept it all to myself

I held 
Pieces 
Of my heart to save
Guess they're all broken now

Light a fire with this match 
Cause 
Our spark is fading fast
And 
If it dies I think I might die too

Don't hold back
Cause I see smoke
And
I need the heat 
So I won't smolder
I need this more than
Oxygen in my lungs

What did you say to cause the hurt?
What did I do to make it worse?
Maybe no matter what 
It would have ended this way
When did the love fade?

(Lauren)
You need
Clarity
To understand the pain
But I've no words
For what I felt
Maybe
Truthfully
I needed to escape
We were rusting on a shelf

Light a fire with this match 
Cause 
Our spark is fading fast
And 
If it dies I think I might die too

Don't hold back
Cause I see smoke
And
I need the heat 
So I won't smolder
I need this more than
Oxygen in my lungs

(Megan)
What did you say to cause the hurt?
What did I do to make it worse?
Maybe no matter what 
It would have ended this way
When did the love fade?

(repeat chorus)